Photo: via Flickr Over the years, I really like to journal or pray out loud or reflect in silence.  Personally, I find these can be very exhausting, at times, but at the same time, it needs to be done.  Could you imagine after you have a broken heart, you find yourself falling in love once again, in a manner that you really did not expect to happen?   Or someone would perhaps say, is that too soon?  Or is that a replacement for your loneliness?  All I could say to you is that we do not have the ability to predict our feelings.  Nor we could repress our true feelings.  I do not like the word, "control".  Love is one feeling that when it comes, they are pretty powerful!  Repressing it can be very difficult.  Telling the feeling to silence it can be a chore!  In terms of the acting part, most people would say, you can control how you act.  

As fall continues on, a lot of things suppose to happen, oh they really do, do they!?  I don't want to say that weather does not have a part to it.  I usually do not like September, but October to me would be more uneventful.  Now this October, my body is more sensitive to the weather changes and to the changes that I have in life even though they may be subtle.  I did not accomplish as much as I should, should I say as always?  I began to be like the weather, unpredictable, rain one day, sunny the next!  I wonder what happens next.  Planning for one person may be easy to do, when you say it, actually to act upon it, it is a chore.  I would like to stuff my fridge with food!  I have food, I still never manage to nourish enough to keep up my energies, blood-work still manage to be below average. 

Now that fall is in now, looking forward to the smell of the spices, pumpkin, fixings, and the crisp cool mornings?  I guess not too many of us are feeling the fall is among us.  Summer come and went too quickly.  I don't know anyone would disagree at all!  We would all begin to see the leaves are falling!  Also rain seems to be more frequent.  One would stay indoors more often.  You and I would be even more busy or perhaps not as busy and begin to be more reflective about our past summer activities or our lives.  By the time we see Oct will come upon us, we will see: more leaves turning into red color and fall!  Hopefully, by then, my writer's urge would come into full fledge or back to normal capacity! 

by: pareeerica

As the summer strolled by, laziness would come upon on us, even on me too.  I am not going to say I am exactly too lazy doing nothing.  I have been doing a lot of work work!  I did some socializing, ate some good food, rediscover some of my favorite chore, cooking and strolling along the farmer's market when I have some time to spare.  I did not like too much of the oddity of the summer that brought upon our good city (the garbage strike).  Yikes! 
Moments of deep reflections weren't not much and between for the past few weeks, though there are enough to reflect upon on its own merit. 
I do have to say there are a month to go for summer, therefore enjoy!

wants and needs are very similar but yet very different at the same time.  in terms of love, it can get very hazy.  you want love.  you need love.  those are the two things.  but one is defined as: i really desire love.  one is defined as: required wanted.  these two words sounds so interchangeable.  these two are not.  you need to realize that love can only be have it if you really work hard for it!  therefore its a want!  a need is like something like food, shelter, water, health, emotional health....
love is also a need in an emotional level, yet very complex!
what would you consider as a want?
what would you consider as a need?
discuss if you like below!

A lot of times, we don't have the time to listen.  We don't even have the moment to listen to the other person who want to convey their messages to you.  Before it is too late or to repair some of the damages relationships can be done.  Preventative measures can be done.  I believe that taking some time to listen to one another can be very useful when there are important messages or lessons that you can learn from the other person.  I would like to say that the lessons that I learn for the last few days are valuable and are being treasured next to my heart.  I do not know at anytime, I could say I am the best listener.  Listening takes a lot of training, skills and patience to do so.
Over the years, heart to heart talks occur, often they do lead to better relations.  Sometimes to closer understanding to your friends. In these cases, at this timeframe, when you talk to someone that you care about could be as basic as get to know you or the other person, these can be very significant in the long run.  Sharing is important, though my sharing is limited to generalizing here online because of privacy. I would only say a few things. 
Listening
Sharing
Patience
Coming to a compromise
Agree to Disagree
Unconditional love
Forgiveness
What is the point of holding on to the Anger! Yeah, be angry, but let it go at some point!
That's all for now!

The universe must have some ways to say things to me, my past entry got me into thinking?   Is the state of Q&A really not a good way to ponder upon your life?  That is not my main point of this entry.  I was wanting to reflect upon how Michael Jackson is such a big phemonon on our culture and that it really makes our corner of our lives so small.  I was wanting to do a video, but this blog can do my blogcast via voice.  Michael has been in our imagination since we watched him when we were young.  You like him or not, he made really big influences on music.  He really made music really fashionable to listen to in a walkman, CD, DVD, ipod(please some of you do buy his tunes or his styles on itunes or somewhere).  His influences were really big for so many people alike from music industry, but also from acting, people that he knew throughout his life or even future inspire-musicians to be.  Would you say, when some of  you were a kid singing or dancing or having to perform a routine, some of you would pick or pretend to be Michael Jackson?  Would you put your music in your college rooms in late nights, while you're supposingly blasing on some other musician of the day?
Did u watch the MJ memorial tribute?  Personally had difficult time to bring myself to watch all people crying and would not know when to watch the videos of it.  For now, its just a tad too fresh to view. 

In this I will write in third person form.  For those who knows me well will know the context means.
Immortity, death, taxes seems to be a few things that comes back once in a while.  The compass that one needs can be questioned at one point.  Never would one say that bad days would not be around.  There are those days one question of what one has done does far because naturally one is a human being.  One is weary of how tired and the amount of energy put forth without knowing or still understanding why at times that its fulfilling.  Not that one feels empty, could it be because one struggles with emotions that when one needs to express them, you can only do it for oneself.  But at the end, it comes back to: hallowness and frustration towards oneself.  One does not want to do it for just the others, but for self too.  But is self or others so over-rated.  Is there exactly crossroads for career, love and family (friendships)?  Or for a matter of fact, some parts of life are in need of a challenge?  Perhaps the unknown still frightens the one.  Would one let go because of obstacles?  One is known for getting up, gather back again and start over again.  (did one need more time to gather the pieces really?)
One always would find the excuses, but eventually, time does run out.  Somehow one still doesn't feel the feeling the time is right yet to move on the career direction in giant steps.